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Name: lindsay riann
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Metro: Detroit
Birthday: 12/12/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: God!, family, my friends, love, music, the bible!, cookie-dough ice cream, mmbc, the color red, starbucks, summer time, jeremy camp, cru, food, swimming, MICHIGAN, good books, sunflowers!!, my kitten, flip flops, good books, sweat pants
Expertise: running/falling/tripping into things, being loud, laughing, being in the computer lab and doing nothing, speaking before thinking, singing in my car when i'm by myself
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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AIM:  LRiann1212
MSN: lindsayrsmith@hotmail.com
Member Since:
3/29/2006
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| hey folks,
so sorry i've basically dropped off the face of the earth. i'm still alive and here in toledo. life has just been really crazy...that not being the word, but you get the point. ups and downs. twists and turns.
but i've been trying to work on myself recently. events have caused me to open my eyes to the severity of my insecurities, low self-esteem, and lack of confidence. i've been this way my. entire. life. no joke. and it's taken a good friend and my loverface to get me to really see me for who i am. i am no where near perfect, never will be. but i'm trying hard. i take one day at a time. i still have my bad days where i cry and pitty myself for no reason. but then i get back on the horse and try, try again. i'm trying to eat healthy and feel better about myself physically that way it'll be easier to feel better emotionally. i'm trusting God a lot too...which has always been an issue for me (trusting others. even when i know their 'ideas' are better than mine).
AND there's only like 1.5 weeks of school left. i can't wait. except then i start work then a week later my summer class starts. wahoo. lol. i just want it to be summer for more than one reason.
i'm tired of people wronging me too....i'm not going to get into it...but it's just juvenile and immature the way some people act.
anyway...i'm alive. and trying to stay positive. : )
in christ jesus.
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Phone Booth
By Colin Farrell, Kiefer Sutherland, Forest Whitaker, Radha Mitchell, Katie Holmes
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not because it's fat tuesday & i'm starting my diet tomorrow.
& not because it's super tuesday, bc i honestly don't really care all that much right now. but seriously, i hate politics. all they're playing is the news. boo.
it's just been one of those sad days. rain. darkness. blah. i woke up this morning and didn't feel like 'swimming' so i didn't go to my water aerobics class [we can miss up to 5 times without it affecting our grade...]. so i just chilled and relaxed most of the afternoon in my pj's. then my next two classes were canceled. great? yay? wahoo? not really. i didn't shower until 1. i went to walmart to spend money i don't have on razors and face wash, which i think is pretty essential. then i started to work on my five page research paper that's due (surprisingly) tomorrow. all i've done was highlight my research. this was a hard task bc izzy was all over the place and would not leave me alone unless i sat on the couch so she could play with her toys next to me. pffft. then i was like f' this. so i started making this recipe from rachael ray that sounded like it would be easy and tastey. wrong. it was neither. guess i forgot that i am like cooking illiterate. [& nothing like rachael ray] not to mention i made a huge mess and it tasted horrible. and now i feel sick, probably bc i didn't cook it right & then decided to eat popcorn to get the nasty onion/cheese flavor out of my mouth. to make things even better...mark has been really distant, which isn't a good thing since oh, idk...::remembering past weekend:: and he's not coming over. which i can understand bc he's really busy helping his dad finish the condos and he's super busy with school right now. but....still. seeing him prolly would've made my day better. le sigh.
so what do i do now?
watch the news? - vaguely listen to the news while i try to write my paper? - throw out the rest of the concoction? - turn everything off and write my paper? - or - watch something else, like a movie and go to bed? & write my paper tomorrow in between classes?
i just keep praying...
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| okay i am so sick of the news and everybody talking heath ledger's potential drug addiction which could have caused his death. it really annoys me when people (like the news!) broadcast things they don't know to be 100% true. poor heath ledger and his family and his little girl. he was such a great actor (even if he really was addicted to drugs) and i am still so sad and in disbelief that he actually died. so please, just leave him and his family alone. give them some privacy.
also...could you stop with the obsession over brittany spears? seriously? maybe the poor girl wouldn't be so nuts if the damn paparazzi would leave her alone.
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